Summer in Kennewick

I've been back in K-Town for almost 2 months....as wonderful as it is, I'm starting to get antsy. I haven't been able to find a job and am just trying to keep myself busy, which is easier said than done. My three younger siblings have gotten out of school for the summer, so we'll see how things turn out.....my mom and I are trying to come up with ways to preserve our sanity (personally, I don't know how we'll survive). One of my brothers is already saying 'I can't wait until you leave'. I act like it doesn't bug me, but honestly, every time he says that it hurts, it hurts a lot.

Had I stayed in Provo, I would've had a job and I would've been with my friends. It makes me a little frustrated when I think about that. However, there is one good thing that has come from me not finding a job. I have been fortunate enough to be able to visit family I haven't seen in several years. I went to Kent, WA to see one of my cousins perform in one of the lead roles of 'Little Shop of Horrors", she's now graduated and is in the Army ROTC at University of Portland. I'm so proud of her, I don't think I ever told her that, but I really am. We used to be really close, but (courtesy of my stupidity) we grew apart.

I also got to go down to Salem, OR for a weekend and spent it with my Yaya and Pappy. I haven't seen them since my freshman year of college, and I don't know when I'll get to see them again. Yaya's health is deteriorating and anytime I get to spend with her and Pappy is special. I really want them to be there when I get married, but since that isn't going to be anytime in the near future, there's a good chance that they won't be. Anyway, we went to Lincoln City, a town on the Oregon Coast, and went out to the ocean. Pappy loves the ocean, he served in the Coast Guard for 21.5 years. Yaya wasn't feeling good and stayed in the car, but Pappy and I went out and just watched the ocean for a little while. We didn't really talk, but that time watching the ocean, meant just as much if not more than spending an hour talking with Pappy. It was stormy that day, and I loved just watching the water, I can't even explain it, but I was just staring, completely mesmerized by the awesome power of the water. It was so powerful, but a bit frightening. I've decided I want to live near the water, not on the coast, but maybe an hour or two away.

I really am glad to be home, seriously I am. It just is a hard transition, one I don't really like. But, as hard and painful as its been, there has been some good, and that is what I need to focus on.